Where have I been?

I figured I owed you an explanation on where I have been the past, oh, 16 or so months?

I think I may have disappeared from the face of social media around the time the Ukrainian war broke out. I felt I don´t have much to say. What other topic would be there to discuss when people´s life are affected in such truly horrible ways? In times like this, seeing light and simple topics discussed on socials is strange and seems plain stupid, indifferent and insensitive.

Yes, there were posts, and the best way to help, but people went on with their life. Which I guess is how it should be.

But as time went on, other things happened around the world, and I felt that I have nothing important to say.

I worked very long and hard hours. I did paperwork on vacation days, I wrote on the serpentines of the Romanian mountains things that shouldn´t have been important, yet, they were deemed that, by my boss.

With not having a day off, and being bothered on my day off while taking my kid to the ER (she is fine) I became frustrated. Increasingly frustrated. 

Yet, I continued to work and be frustrated and not find my place. 

I started suffering of all kind of symptoms, which were a bit strange for me, always in top shape. But nothing changed for a while. 

Then around my birthday (go figure), I started thinking, with all this work, I lost all my morning solo time. Suffering from insomnia, and waking up at 3 am constantly would mean I get time to just sit with my thoughts or read a book, right? Wrong. My dog still takes me on a long walk every day 🙂 and I must say, walks are life changing. Grateful to this dog of ours.

I worked on new illustrations and watercolor paintings in every free minute. 

So I reintroduced a couple of times of reading and journaling every morning. It seems, without those I loose my footing. If I don´t have a couple of minutes to sit with my thoughts, if I am on the run all the time, I am not myself. 

In January a couple of new people were hired, so that gave me some time to create more.

I am happy to say that many more art was created since then. I have old old dreams that I hope to materialise this year. I was planning to create these new products (not wall art) for a few years now. Time was never on my side, but now I am optimistic and things are getting planned out and put in motion.

I will return with blog updates and on socials.

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