Fascination with books on death

September 28, 2023

My true dream in life was to own a business. One that, though it will change to accommodate the changing trends in the field, will always serve a need. Thus will never go out of business, unless I purposefully try to sink it. Yes, you guessed it. A funeral home.

I was the one in my family, always being in the front row at the long hours of day and night wake to console everybody. Somehow I became known for being ok around dead bodies and funerals. You see, funerals in Romania were kind of different back in the day. Three days of a wake in the persons home. Then it moved to funeral houses, but still, the three days is a norm. Since it was home, somebody was always with the dead. And in the summer, at home, well let me tell you, around day two the smells were starting. Day three was already funeral day, so it was manageable. What I wasn´t ok with at a younger age were caskets. God they freaked me out.

So, I wanted to own a funeral home. Then I wanted to become a pathologist, but mainly because I loved spending hours on end at the microscope. It was the first thing in uni, I was really good at. So I quickly fell in love, choosing it as my field of research as well.

But then there were no openings, and I agreed to be in the department of general surgery for a couple of months, until they will have a position for me. Well, you know how it goes, surgery was amazing. It was action packed, I saw and did things I never dreamt about, I didn´t want to go transfer to pathology. I am not sorry, I needed surgery, it changed my life. Of course.

But the fascination is still there. I would not start a pathology residency, the autopsies are really not that many, but I still think about becoming a mortician and setting up my own business. What can I say, it is a teenage dream :-)

So, I bought a book on Amazon. And then another. And it started showing me results with books that might interest me. Well, algorithm, you were right. I did not read reviews or went to Goodreads, I just ordered them one after another.

And I am going to walk through them.

Do you have some strange fascinations or dreams that you would share with me?