November 21, 2022
I start every day with a walk. Be it cold or rainy, dark, gloomy or a fog that doesn't actually allow you to see anything I walk through the woods with my dog. I am thankful to be living near the woods. I meet all the same people, biking or running at crazy hours and in crazy weather like me.
It was my delayed grief therapy. I walked and cried. I miss my mother and I needed to feel my grief. I noticed after a couple of months, crying did not come. Now I walk and enjoy the woods and I listen to music, or a podcast, but the woods already gave me what I needed.
I can work through hard decisions there, like quitting my job, or quitting in general. I became very good listening to my intuition, but then I somehow lost the connection and it shows. I took a job I did not like, just because it is normal to work outside the home, I needed to work double the amount of time it was discussed, always overtime, computer work while on vacation, a boss creating a toxic workplace, celebrating working on state holidays, and everything you can imagine.
It took some guts to say no more, but I am still working, while waiting for the people to replace me. I want to only do art for a while. To work with clinics and hospitals and to paint. It is a full time job and it is a job, just like everything else. More importantly, it is a job that supports me and I wholeheartedly love. Every part of it.
Hope to be writing more here. Hope to have more time to go out and meet new people, see new shows, visit galleries. But the most importantly, hope to have time to spend with my family. I hate telling my girls, I can't now, I am working. I forgot this or that because I have too much on my plate.
I hope my sleep will improve, because working from 3 am to 6 pm is not fun. I don't want to do it. I don't celebrate hustle culture. Never did. I hope Europe is not getting on that train, though might be too late for that.
Hope to see you here more or through my newsletter that is getting revived. So many new people there. Thank you!
PS: The above picture is the lake I walk to through the woods. I snap a pic and then hope to put together a short video of the trees changing through the seasons.
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